Jennifer Funnell

I was going to send a message to bassets vitamins saying they should have “fit time in” as the slogan! ‘Cause it sounds like vitamin (I really couldn’t let this go). 

Didn’t do it though cause I forgot as soon as I got off the tube.

I visited the British museum today and saw some glazed tiles 

I wrote:

chipped glaze

Were the tiles meant to be cracked into smaller parts? 

The colours are still very bright, nature of glaze? 

Fading of some of the yellow

this is for an assignment, forgot about this note as well haha. 

recently, my world has been murky,

Though I must note it’s been a lot of fun as well!

But it’s distant and I worry I won’t get close. 

My heart wants new things and has forgotten the old. 

My blood is chamomile.

There’s a rift in my cup, it’s a foggy glass, my papers fall off the wall. 

I’m in an attic once more, but this attic is for an adult me.

But it’s so empty?

It feels beyond me.

I don’t complete things, I try to complete the way I feel. 

Come to a conclusion so I can make a plan! no plans have been made yet.

I’m checking the oven clock and gosh the realisations haven’t come yet.

I struggle with motivation, with meaning. the meaning of all of this. Why do I study? why have I left my family? why am I here? 

I think I’ll find a solution soon, a hot bath mum would say or maybe a chat with dad. 

I can take things and grab them and move them to my liking. 

I can be all those things 

I can do it.

I’ll get this realisation!! 

maybe the whole thing is to know I’ll feel inspired and ready once more, 20 is not that different. 

I am growing and learning and looking and feeling and loving.

Here we are. 

Don’t worry! Hope is just around the corner.

I’m going home this weekend to paint!!! Wish me luck!!!!!

Thanks for reading, as always!

Jenny